^^

2012-02-01T19:59:00.001+08:00

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Exactly what describes one of the feelings. Brand new beginning, brand new experience, brand new

2012-01-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

要进去了! A new era LOL

2012-01-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

said i will, but can i :/

Nearly 3 weeks spent overseas, feel so detached and all, and stupid SOPA!! All the good things online are gone with the wind :( CNY was as usual, but for some reason im starting to dread it in the recent years. People are leaving the kampong and villages in search of better opportunities. This only became apparent to me just recently. Leaving my grandfather's place, only then did i realise he'll be spending a few days alone. As much as i want to stay and as much as i feel helpless, reality pulls us all back. 开工的，开学的，什么跟什么的.

Though i dont speak much to my grandparents, i feel very attached them. They brought me up since birth and i still rmb many of the things they've done for me. Thinking back i feel lucky to be so pampered and loved, to the extent where i think i don't deserve it. When my grandmother passed away years ago, only then did i became conscious that everyone is aging as we grow, only then did i really stopped to think about others. Being selfish for most of my life, i still feel helpless and at a lost all the time. How should i behave and how i should be, what i should do and how i should do. im still a kid, i do not dare to imagine how it'll be in the future.

This cny is special, tearing at night watching my grandfather sleep, i was more conscious of what was happening the entire day. So many things happen without us undetacting or feeling it.

Going in soon, there won't be much time left, at least i got an ang bao from the auntie at the end of tuition :D

2012-01-26T04:33:00.000+08:00

君が僕にくれた輝き忘れないずっと

People say it's just another tear jerker, I say I really enjoyed it. Towards the end the beginning began to show their impacts, what is built up forms the idea and emotion, and it slowly make it's presence felt in the mind. Intriging :)

Taking the one week left to watch as many movie as I can! Feeling so detached is a whole new experience, won't say i don't like it ><

2012-01-17T21:33:00.001+08:00

Day 1
Extreme condition!! Somehow reminded of the scenes 4 years ago, pitching the tent in the pouring rain and losing all the sweets from having it dissolve in the rain.

Initially quite worried about joining the experienced people, but somehow things smoothed out >< really glad to be paired with him and learnt alot from his experience. 5 years is not for nought ^^ Total respect for his passion, his desire, his determination and him.

Day 2
E x R = O
Simple relation that never really crossed my mind, thanks for bringing it up and reminding me from time to time. It's great to have him guiding me along throughout the camp! Some of his ideas and thoughts are inspiring!

Day 3
Mixed feelings. Knew it from the start when he told me, but when the end is just around the corner everything comes crashing down. You could tell from his eyes :/ I sincerely thank you for sharing so much with me though you have no obligations at all, it has been great working with you :)
(too tired to continue liaosss)

Bintan
SHIOK AH!!! Damn fun but DFS was disappointing... CHEAP CHOCOLATEEEE AAAHHHHH!! Quite a shame to leave early for AGM, but nvm ba it was really fun >< especially during the night and laser tag and everything :p

Was totally disconnected from the internet throughout these few days, and going to be the same from tmr all the way to next wednesday, with the exception of a few hours on Friday!
Everytime I convince myself, one tiny event will tear the conviction into despair, as much as filling the time with every other random events or shits, at the end it doesn't even matter. It just comes back :/

HAH A VERY EARLY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL TO ANYONE WHOM SEES THIS!
BYE :D

hopefully time will really fix it, i don't get it sometimes

2012-01-09T17:38:00.002+08:00

Lucky to be invited in, eye opener really, to see the different lifes of different people. Before enlisting, filling time with whatever there is!! Movies, asking to go for as many camps as possible, movie, guitar, and more movies!! Just finished Cyrano Agency, one down 2 to go, with loads more on the download list! Challenged myself to finish as many as possible by the month! I still hold onto this tiny speck of hope, though it may not mean much to others :)

<br><br><br>asd
GOING KOREF!

2012-01-07T00:05:00.003+08:00

Wonder what the me in the future will say about myself when i think back about these. Can't wait to know lol
Though I am unworthy.It's the joy of supremacy to scatter and spread, that although I might appear lifeless, it does not bother me.

So won't you show me a smile or two?

2012-01-04T23:13:00.001+08:00

MINDBLOCK! Everytime something comes to my mind and when the blogger page is opened, the things that were there magically disappears and BOOM the entire post is gone XO
It's darn nice to just forget about everything, to be carefree and ignorant, to be like the wallpaper on the com and on the phone :D
Spending too much and earning too little, the overall change is negative but heck, the spending will stop when the ability to spend is gone!
Chirpy these few days, hope the mood can continue and whatever is happening won't change much, but the tiny wish I hold on to ever since receiving the notice still lingers! It's not bad to hold this tiny hope right :)
It's extremely difficult when one has too many things that one treasures. At times, if one wants something, it can only be achieved by sacrificing something else. That's why, the most important thing is to have a heart.

2nd english song learnt at primary school :)

2012-01-03T11:35:00.004+08:00

新的一年，新的开始!!

No longer going KOREF :( sian diao!!!

Can't help but have this empty feeling every once in awhile, it's true that what matters is what an individual think/feels. It's just that I can't help but to be affected by others :/ Every little action brings about an explosion of reactions inside me. Even when I know such thoughts should be eradicated, they run amok within and chaos ensue -.-

2011-12-30T18:38:00.005+08:00

'We can't control our experience once we have created the thought. Consciousness is the passive servant of thought, automatically turning thoughts into experience. The only variable we have control over is our thinking.'

知足!

2011-12-27T00:46:00.001+08:00

想要吃米!!! Don't worry people I'm happier than never before! Mind is clear and anticipating the future which is going to be a present to me :D
(quoting the book)

2011-12-20T23:47:00.001+08:00

Feels really pathetic after today la, stooped so low, like an idiot totally. 同病相怜，but your situation is still favourable but I don't see any light in mine, 加油! Just do it :)

2011-12-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

Song to live by!

2011-12-07T20:30:00.004+08:00

sian can i split myself into two -.-
but CBA la have to go along the direction which brings greater ease to everyone, if not very 麻烦 for them -.-
ㅑ ㄱㄷ미ㅣㅛ ㅈ뭇 새 ㅇ갸ㅜㅏ 쟈소 ㅛㅐㅕ 미ㅣ ㅠㅕㅅ ㅑㄹ ㅑ 해 ㅇ갸ㅜㅏ 쟈소 ㅛㅐㅕ 미ㅣ, 솓 혀ㅛㄴ 쟈ㅣㅣ ㅗㅁㅍㄷ 내ㅡㄷ ㅅ개ㅕㅠㅣㄷ ㅎㄷ샤ㅜㅎ 새 낯ㅊ ㅐㅜ 소댝 ㅐ주 뭉 ㅑㄹ 소됴 ㅊ뮤 ㅑㅅ'ㅣㅣ ㅠㄷ 새ㅐ ㄷ테두냪ㄷ, 소냔 녀찬 :(

been thinking about it, why was i okay with it all along in the past 17 years but not this one year. really expecting too much and overestimating myself :(
sometimes the feeling just sinks in

okay getting excited, for others LOL
this kind of stuff makes me so happy, #givesmejoy

2011-12-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

jasmine is awesome(Y)

2011-12-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

Never did I give up hope on stunting, cheering, but time and time again I felt disappointment and despair, and the hopelessness of being the only, but at least this is something I can bring up at interviews. Going to be honest on christmas, shouldn't let things drag on past the year!

2011-11-23T01:19:00.002+08:00

Guess I still haven't learnt my lesson, TP tomorrow night!! Ignore awkwardness likeaboss

Great timing for the movie, really enjoyed it :)

2011-11-03T23:09:00.001+08:00

definitely mood swing o.o

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2011-10-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

Fine line between jealous and envious
Neither's fine, should really look forward but I guess being stuck and obstinate is something I don't bother to change.

On a side note it's great to watch clouds drift around, thought of the few wonderful moments when younger and nothing compares

2011-10-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle is such a great thing, nothing has zero uncertainty, you can never be too sure of anytihng and there will always be this trace bit of uncertainty in all entirety.
我好想懂谁放我手心里捧 幸福啊依然长长的人龙
Couldn't run as much as desire on Friday, the piercing pain in the heart came back again, but strangely it comes only when i run and not when i do cardio at the gym, talk about heart beating at near 150 bpm when slow jogging -.- Been like this since 2.4 but the pain only seems to surge back with increasing intensity over time, durable then but hardly able to tahun now, like seriously whatever happened during the med check :|

Farewell was strangly, sad. The main purpose of the juniors holding a farewell for their seniors seems to be to let them let go of what happened in the past 2 years, but it is this 2 years which i'll never be able to let go. The sense of regret and pity for not having a chance. Being exposed to reality is just what I need, but I'll much rather delude myself given the choice.

2011-09-11T21:24:00.001+08:00

Moments like this really makes me feel like a sitting duck, live target, whatever it is called.

2011-08-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

It's a beautiful day :D woke up feeling damn shiok and all, and since I didn't feel like doing work, chionged to gym!!! Felt like it was the usual Sunday back then, going 7/11 first to get a drink, going gym and try to keep low profile, then going for lunch at LJS. The tired feeling is really nostalgic, and it made me happy and looked retarded as I smiled to myself the whole time, but screw it it is great :D
Doing this routine and the feeling it gave was joyous, but somehow.it felt a little different, like there's a void in it. The emptiness can never be replaced, but I guess I'll have to live with it -.- It's a beautiful day and i hope it stays this way :DBOOMZ

how awesome my food buddy is

2011-07-24T19:26:00.002+08:00

Roses are red
I'm not gay
Food is awesome
And so are you :)
변태!
Seriously nice to have someone who loves eating as much as me! (even more so than me rather) One look at my size and anyone can tell how much I like to eat >< nothing beats having someone to eat with! Suddenly remember the times eating macs breakfast myself early in the morning LOL!
How great it is to have someone constantly reminding I'm partial guy and gay and pedophilic.
How nice to have someone suan you all the time!
I'll have my revenge >:D
변태!
I think you're obsessed with food though :D
Don't have much to say or type, I'm Lee Hong Hui yo don't expect too long a post ><
Really admire those who can type alot >< SORRY 변태!
You're really awesome really! Best food buddy award goes to YOU 변태!

2011-07-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

Yeah HP is finished and another thing to look forward to is lost. SIAN. At least there's Victoria Challenge to look forward to tomorrow :o Weird state of mind right now, so many things had happened and there's isn't exactly too much of a chance to process them all. Highly impossible to catch all 50 tennis balls flying at you at 100MPH

Doing most of the things that don't matter in life, but feeds the soul. Why commit yourself and complain after doing it when you can avoid it in the first place :(

Plan B seems not bad, but the 'opp cost' is like, wow, astonishing.

confused, perplexed, mentally disturbed.

2011-07-06T20:19:00.002+08:00

never should I feel disappointed in myself, I deserve it.
cannot really see the world as it is, I'm already half blind, feel so retarded trying to do things not meant for me and trying to take roles which isn't meant for me, but such thoughts exists in the mind, and perhaps this is what annoys me and others the most. I know I shouldn't be saying this, but I'm weird -.-

2011-07-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

Sorry if I annoyed/irritated you in one way or another, I sincerely apologise. I really don't know what is wrong with me/what has gotten into me and I am just as confused :(

On a side note, I should really be contented (maybe even grateful) for what I have, shall try not to get too bothered by this anymore, I don't even think I deserve such kindness.

2011-07-03T02:36:00.002+08:00

Irritating how there's the need to answer to every single shit you do, and does doing the right thing always matters? Screw logic and rationality, I want to do whatever shit I want to do and heck all else, but dammit that's not how the world works. Every piece of crap is going to engulf all else and no way is there going to be any way to stop this. That's why I always seem to prefer being by myself, being with no one but myself frees me from all restrains and burden. Apparently I have wasted the past 18 years, I still think I'm lost and searching, for what seems to be myself, scary to think that even I don't know myself at all. What I want, why I do things, when I behave differently, how I control myself. As much as I believe in myself that I can do some stuff, it will just not work out, as much as I hope I can NOT do some stuff, I'll do it in the end, like searching for the end in a loop of tangled strings. Doing random pointless stuff to distract the mind is not going to work. Never liked facing the world, and I guess I will never do. What's the point in it -.-

2011-07-01T03:35:00.002+08:00

啊你奶奶的，烦又不能说烦，失望也不能解释这郁闷的心情，有够气人的 -.-
误解，胡思乱想，口上摆着一句话，心里隐藏着另一端想法...

burden

2011-06-25T00:04:00.001+08:00

2011-06-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

Feel so pathetic, not wanting to feel so lonely and wanting talk to others but realising there's no one and nothing to talk about. When there is someone who you feel comfortable talking to there's the fear of irritating/disturbing them and interupting what they're doing. Should be used to this by now but perhaps this is what they mean.Camp is over but I get the feeling it is nit just the camp that is over. People all over the world have friends they can trust and confide in, friends to irritate to no end but still be friends and friends who are more than willing to be by their side whenever and wherever. Why is there this sense of insecurity and helplessness. Normally I'll never drink unless it's a happy occasion or when with family, but I can't believe I volunteerily decided to drink in the middle of the night myself. Loving each and every little escapes from reality, just not doing what is right and important and doing whatever I like. They never do last, and never stay for long, but the memories are damn fugging sweet. Looking back at all of them brings joy to me but they all leave a sour taste, the despair of knowing it is all gone for good and are nothing but impossible dreams or hopes.How is it possible to let go, countless times I decided to let go and countless times I feel I did. Not once had I really. Be it things of the past from over a decade ago to every little shit that occured recently.Life's a bitch.

phyeewww~ boom boom

2011-05-26T20:05:00.002+08:00

do you ever feel like a plastic bag
drifting through the wind

yea sounds stupid at first but katy perry, damn right you are

are you ready!?

2011-05-26T06:37:00.002+08:00

Never thought that dragon boating could be so fun, with the exception of gulping down sewage water. Felt quite fab but the weather wasn't that good :( started quite late so ended quite late, but alot if time was spent on trying to get the kite from skcc to fly. Super funny to see.how a bunch of ppl is trying to fly the extremely small kite, which was only capable of exhibiting circular orbits in the air before tumbling down.

Still can't relate well to the class, went for lunch but listened all the way : quite cool to hear so many stories about their siblings while spamming ice cream like a loser :P

Argh shldnt have deleted the draft, moment of folly...

:(

hungry...

2011-05-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

damn super hungry and thirsting for bubbletea! havent spoken for over 24 hours (o.o)

the balanced beam just got tipped a little, and i'm getting so itchy and cannot stand it >< nvr thought i'll have this selfish thought and actually wants to fulfill it. GREED! aching all over just from the few elevators in the sea lol, sentosa was great :)
but it could have been better
What samuel told me is true, time has buried everything and we become blinded by it, but it is a tradition and i will strive to continue it!
OMG I SO DESPO LIAO WAN TO STU...PID

2011-04-23T01:50:00.003+08:00

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
just wasted the entire day listening to it and watching 'little pig' and 'little ghost' and wgm. wanted to go to sch, but shoulder didn't allow me to (:p) must really force myself to study sia, with such econs grade -.- just not cut out for econs >:X
maybe i can console myself that reading articles on how wp7 can overtake iOS or android, and the marketing strategies microsoft took or is taking can help in my econs ><

if only i have stuffs to write out like jx, 10 of my posts = 1 of yours!
Qn: Are you okay with silence?
HAHAHA super random but suddenly rmb this question that Mr L asked in lesson about 2 months ago. surprisingly i feel the same way he does regarding this o.o

Secret to dreams = nap more?
everytime i nap i dream, and there are always some ridiculous dreams that will leave an impression in the mind that lasts for quite awhile. this particular dream still remains clear..
is it because of the giant 'cigarette' in cheer room or the constant exposure to cigarettes, i actually dreamt i was a smoker, and during the dream i couldn't tahan not smoking though i'm in malaysia with all my relatives. i actually went to the back of the house to 'take a jom' and got caught by one of the younger cousin. then began the tom and jerry chase scene LOL
Really the many reasons that ppl smoke seems true...
몰라요

boomz

2011-04-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

posting for the sake of posting, to help rmb ><
yea went back to wai gong jia! freaking happy la, took the train finally after like a few years. missed the shakiness, the occasional butting from the random guy who can't stand properly and the awesome RM1 curry puff, guava and water apple. just one ride to evoke so much memories, there were times where grandma will be with us on the train when she visits us, and that she never fails to send us off at the train station each time we went back. i missed being 疼...

BUT the train was epic fail, schedule to leave at 0715 and it reached the station at nearly 745. it finally departed but it was nearly 12 before it reached bekok -.-
SPAMMED durians and table tennis with cousins, and that was how i pretty much spent the day, super fun and tiring! for the first time i actually slept early there, to prepare to wake up at 6+ the next day ><

Sunday morning arrived and the lights were mostly switched on. hurriedly had breakfast before moving out to 扫墓. Nostalgic, i was there when younger, but the sense of familiarity engulfed me. started feeling a little sad when we reached grandma's grave, the feeling of guilt and regret reappeared and it stayed.

went back home, had more durian, table tennis and lepaking. i could get used to this :p
Took the train back home, but this time round it felt very different, not like before. nothing but emptiness as i boarded the train and left.

Reached home at round 11+, too freaking tired to pack bag and everything, which explains why i brought friday's stuff to sch today >< sorry ma'am!

AH sians too freaking pissed off now -.-
WTF MAN

2011-03-28T18:59:00.003+08:00

Dreams are the best things one can ask for, both types. One was obliterated, but luckily the other is strictly personal. had a really wonderful one a last week, searching for a book in a gigantic bookshelf while cutting through maze with the cheerful bunch of kids, what more can i ask for :p

i guess i don't really like departures, not a little bit.
i'm selfish and i like to keep things as it is, i hate it when someone in your life (however small) leaves, there is this sense of emptiness which spawns out of nowhere, perhaps from the desire to keep them near me. i'm 18, but my minds speaks otherwise. i m a freaking immature idiot.
i'm shameless, utterly appalled but yes i am.
i'm greedy, i want so much more, even now.
i'm as good as a grain of sand in expressing myself, i can't speak my mind when i want to, i can't speak no nuts -.- maybe this is why i'm unable to talk about my problems or unhappiness when i want to, not i'm unwilling to talk about it. 久而久之，我已习惯把所有的事埋在心里，让时间的流动让它消失.

OMG i'm really shameless -.-
fuck sia so freaking shameless -.- 厚脸皮!

boring things for the boreds

2011-03-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

it's gettin weirder. things are changing at such a pace it is gettin too out of hands. nvr been good with changes and really wish how things can stay the same, but no, reality sets in and fucks everything up. thanks ^^
i'm greedy, very greedy. i want more. MORE.
it's back again, the void that's supposed to be filled up and buried away is back to haunt, or it just reappeared after hiding. life being a routine seems so beautiful then but now the routine is daunting. nvr wanted something to happen to this routine but how i want it now -.-

Bird park was great, kids were cool and i felt like a kid once again, thanks jia en, jia jun, pei xuan, wei xi and coco! lookin forward to more chances heehee

NATIONAL! 'spotted' pri sch kids lol, SPOTTERS FTW! did line judging which was super cool, stares at line, stares at line...
Adrenaline rush even though i'm seated down, and the exhilaration when teams pulled off their routine was great! weeps looked like he teared at the end of the routine, and strangely i followed suit >< couldnt cheer even though i really wanted to!!!
jun jie had an injured shoulder which squished his face during their rehearsal, it seemed so painfully la, he was forcing a smile on his face throughout the run.
perhaps, Kah Weng was right, miracle happens and the cheer god is there!

THANKS KNIGHTS for the wonderful bag!!! i will use it everyday ^^
I GOT LOVELY CARDS TOO! I AM SUCH A LUCKY BASTARD.

i just don't get some stuffs, as much as i like to think likewise, my thoughts will stray -.- FUCK

([:=3)

2011-02-27T22:04:00.006+08:00

([:=3) how is this not a gorilla :p

'Make healthcare your career' talk at Scape today! Kinda cool to see so many 'doctor supporting roles' in healthcare, lucky it wasn't all about doctors lol. Interesting talks exposing the some of the many roles in healthcare, physiotherapy isn't exactly what i thought it was >< i'm only interested in one aspect of it i guess :l
Spent alot on food today! should have restricted myself, not like i have that much to spend -.-

Ah need to have constant reminder to eat less...
anyways 终于硬着头皮地 request for Connect2, totally missed the two that i asked for last year, and i didn't apologise to him directly >< i was only able to rmb that i forgot to turn up for Connect2 nearly a month after the actual date, and i couldn't draw out the courage to apologise >< AND this happened twice o.o
Really have to work on this 'short-term-memory' of mine >:3
BETTER TURN UP FOR IT THIS TIME LHH!

CT1 is coming... GG! Spending too much time thinking about the stupid piece of paper in the dream -.-
Haix OKAY SMILE MORE OKAY PPL (if there's any reading :X)
if you have too much time to spare, take a look at this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ad-pxjmlpds
look out for this : confession, bieber style!

Smile, for life without it is equal to going to the toilet with not toilet paper after shitting :)

2011-02-16T21:40:00.003+08:00

to put it nicely i'm very very envious, but truth is i m just jealous. i won't hide it, it's the truth, i am so very freaking jealous.

fear is taking over me like how it did last year, somehow i overcame it last year, but lately it has began to continue to pester me... haix so so so self centered, that's human guess -.-

ㅔㅁ샤둧ㄷ (decode this :p)

2011-02-13T17:01:00.004+08:00

明天不一定更好，但更好的明天一定会来

If only i was born in the past where the econs paper seems to be a little easier, ah freak -.-

sometimes i just don't get what i'm doing, i do whatever shit i wants without sparing a thought for others and after i realise it, i don't know what to do. If i realise it while doing it, i can't bring myself to stop it. Sorry to everyone whom i offended or did not spare a thought for, please do smack me hard and pull me back to reality, i deserve it i hope.

inability and helplessness clings on hard

i'm just too greedy, i know no end to what i want, what i desire.
maybe i just suck, but i really don't know what i can do.
ah f this shit -.-

Cheers

2011-02-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

hmmm yesterday was a great day, everything was great with the exception of ___ _________ -.- (count the number of underscores lol --->HANGMAN!) fed my soul at NTU sports and recreation centre, and almost got free ben and jerry ice cream, if not for the crowd T_T

'光碟'

2011-02-08T17:28:00.005+08:00

每一次都是这样的，尽管我多想帮那么一点，我就是没本领，机会或没那余地. 无助是样多么可怕的事啊...

知到但不知道该做什么，不该直接告诉你我知道，但想让你知道我会自持你，我可真可笑 -.-
我可能什么都做不了，但是我就是厉害多管闲事，可做个空杯子.
相信我能做个好的空杯子...

DISC is scary... it's like it is shooting hoops with basketball, just that the hoop is nearly a few km wide and it's just in front of it. really feel like taking a FULL psychological test right now, now that the DISC assessment result is out. i don't understand myself well, the desire to find out more is ARGH.

Some of the points given hit the nail on the head, but sometimes i hesitate to believe it is the real me. i know i am damn 虚伪 at times. the test may not be accurate -.- since i pondered on some of the sentences but oh well, it did make some pretty accurate statements i GUESS, based on my perceived knowledge of myself o.o
guess i don't need much, surviving alone is possible for me..

I'm sensitive!
I don't make decisions fast!
I seek ____________!
I'm freaking scared of criticism!
I have so much times to improve on!

Wth is Advocate btw -.-

이미 지난 일 말하면 뭐해 돌릴 수 없는데
괜히 아픈 가슴만 다시 들춰내서 뭐해 쓸데 없게

CNY

2011-02-07T17:41:00.004+08:00

CNY is getting a little scary... The 'fweering' just isn't there much o.o
how can i tell you i'm going to stay in singapore man, i don't think i'm going to survive without any knowledge of melayu and good dialects -.-
Psk...

孔明灯! Super fun experience, lol some of the wishes were super funny... Not this one, it is really sincere!

From my 9 yr old cousin! LOL super funny the way she hides it when writing it, but she just left it on the table for display ><

on a sidenote, watching nice fireworks is nice, especially when other ppl are the one spending money ^^

i guess i don't have much 心事, anything that affects me will just disappear from me in a day's time o.o
good or bad...

Stuck in a memory that you're desperate to rewind
Too busy with looking back that you won't make another try
Now your trust is gone but you won't find it again on your own.

^^

2011-02-01T16:41:00.001+08:00

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says, "Boy, quit foolin' around"
I told her, "I love the view from up here
Warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun, you're mine
All mine
Play the music low
And sway to the rhythm of love

My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung
She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me
She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun, you're mine
All mine
Play the music low
And sway to the rhythm of love

When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry

And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun, you're mine
All mine
Play the music low
And sway to the rhythm of love
Play the music low
And sway to the rhythm of love
Yeah, sway to the rhythm of love

라라라라라라라

2011-01-31T21:24:00.003+08:00

queensway was fun o.o
in a way... maybe...

optimistic is the way to go, but damn hard to sustain. how long can this be kept up! there's so many things that i want to know, but there's no need for me to know them and no reason to know them. ignorance is bliss... it is if you don't know a teeny weeny bit about anything to start with :/

finally found and downloaded the song after nearly an hour, 一个人生活 by 林凡, i remembered crying to this song LOL

going back to malaysia soon, escape from reality!

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect

ball-like

2011-01-30T20:07:00.005+08:00

feel almost like a ball, GUILTY to the max!
Had...

dori fishes (grilled and fried)
salmon
salmon skin
beef
teriyaki chicken
ginseng Chicken
fried maki
pizza
korean sesame chicken
chocolate cheesecake
oreo cheesecake
chocolate truffle
grape jelly
blueberry yogurt pudding
mochi
honeydew sago

reason for listing them out? TO BRAG! muahahaha made up for not having the buffet on tuesday -.-
really want to have a nice dream, it's like the only way to experience something happy and can never happen in reality. Dream = Break from reality + Only way to experience the fantasised world :/

Looking back the way we first met
I cannot escape and I cannot forget
Baby you're the one you still turn me on
You can make me whole again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V0xQkk9kbc

:8)

2011-01-29T08:32:00.005+08:00

tuition later! think i'm going to be late again meeting at macpherson lol
really the tuition owns, where else do they provide free flow of food and cup noodles that sikai is so fond of, and the tutor who never buttons up properly -.-

hmmm time flies, and perhaps people really get more conscious of what they blog about as they get older. i used to just spam all the nonsense and shit out 4 years ago -.-

guess i'm not really over it, all of a sudden yesterday the feeling of emptiness engulfed me and all of a sudden i wanted to do nothing but stone. It's already two months but i don't think i have gotten over it, and i don't think i can get over it either. Smiling and telling people to move on is so... 虚伪 i guess -.-

maybe this was why i wrote an essay on question 8 during GP... the butterfly effect and all that nonsense, what if my appeal wasn't successful or what if i chose SP instead (o.o)

-ve things aside, I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY! (^^)
BECAUSE CHEER COM SHOULD BE AROUND THERE! i'm really desperate, 做不到,看也好!

To sikai: Merry Christmas in Advance LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1DkyppTQv8

The tears that will fall means nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

oh and i posted :p

TEEHEE